arrrr...

dunno y, 2day i damn bad mood, damn down...
dun ask me why, i also dunno...start from after my lunch...
i start damn moody....longtime dunhv tat kinda feeling ady...
damn suffer...feel like wanna run out this world again...
arrrr....gosh...my psychology problem come again...
act, i keep control myself 2 calm down n try dun hv any quarrel with my frenz...
but cannot...my vocano finally get outbreak after the j say nxtime pls c the time before u do the thg..."say with rudely"...!@#$%so mny bad words inside my heart...not only my fault also...duuu.
but i had ask myself need to control,control n control....but once i saw he face with like so lc...
i damn angry...n keep silenting...less talk...cz i knwonce i talk i sure will argue bck...
n after i start calm down....he start say smtg words, n sentences tat hurt me much...
normally,i wont so easy angry...but i had told them whn i'm getting silent, n sit at a corner, den dun ever try to disturb or make me angry....if not, they will die faster...n me 2...
but he still like wanna play the fire...duuu....finally...vocano had outbreak...
i start getting mad...n feel like wanna scold or bit him...but i dun even do tat...
i jz use my eyes n my killer face to show him i'm angrying...but he dun scared at all...
watever...now my mood not good..i dun ever wan 2 bother him...waste my energy...
y dun ever hv 1 people knw me...especially the fren who close wif me...
manythg i also dun like to tell...i prefer use my "heart" to do thg...but dun ever hv 1 ppl knw me..
haiz...damn sad lo...so mny bad thg happen on this few days...
lost my debit card,get scold by bos, get scold by fren, summore feel so sorry which cant acc ding..
arrr....damn moody now...feel like wanna cry, but cant cry it out...=.="
help me...

sienzzz

many days din update ady...also dunno bzy wat...
mmm...assignments, work, pc fair...
this time pc fair epson have pretty bad sales...our commision i think jz only 200bucks
gosh damn less lo...i ride taxi go n bck also used jor lo...du....
n so sienzz lo..not like lastime...so many people till i cant hv my lunch...i like tat kind of feel...
for my assignment...finally finish...
but the most important thg i wan say is i hv interviewd with ManHanD...woohoo..
act i not like them b4, cz i dun like m'sia singers..but after intervoew with dem..i chnge my mine...
i proud of them, cz they very famous in H.K...n they hv crossover with LMF,MC JIN...my favorite MC b4...woohoo..i damn like them now...
n they so nice...so happy and glad can interview themm...
erm..for my business...now start ady...
b4 i damn lazy n notime..so jz stop dere...
once i finish my assignment, i start my job ady...

T.T

jznw i hv quarrel with my sister again...even it not the 1stime...but i cry jor...
bcz of this stu laptop...i hate tat..alwayz say i'm using her laptop...
ok fine...when i say wanna buy laptop she say,dun sot la u...dunwaste this money la..childish...
WAT THE FUCK MAN...if not u, i wan buy laptop meh,i wan waste money meh...
u say all la...even mother also b ur side...
everyitmes hv quarrel also b herside,even is her fault...
i dunno y?y?y?i hate that...
it definetely hurt me much....never stand myside think b4...
i work hard 2 earn money for my study, my play-fees..jz bcz dunwan let u worry me...
n sis..wat she done?ntg...ntg at all..still nid u to help her pay her car fees, roadtax...even now no ady...but b4 tat ..how was tat...worst than that...
wat the hell r u thinking...i really dunno..
how come u can by 1 ppl who useless at all...n not by at 1 who alwayz follow ur order...
y so fanjin...izit every1 also like tat...brainless...
i swear.. 1 more year is my limit 2 stay at this home
once i work, i mz move out....i dunwan 2 stay with my sister n her bf...
a useless bf...i hate that...not man, no future at all...
jz alwayz step at the begining, dunno move on...run to ending...means wont success n no daizi...
HATE THAT...

keep bleeding..keep keep bleeding...

Dunno y,this few days do all the things also like no heart,no mood n BAD LUCK...
When i need 2 edit my "drama"...my lappy spoil,nid 2 format,sumore...
the file can't open n edit...bcz it using SPECIAL software...wat the hell man...
yesterday...i damn bad luck...
early morning,i miss the bus, n i late...den...
when i walking to the lecture hall, my phone drop on the floor...the full of little"STONES" floor....gosh....
my heart damn pain when i saw tat it had "fa" jor...i keep !@#$%... so mny bad words o.s in my heart...cz the phone tat i care for the most, n alwayz keep laping it...HAD FA JOR....n it not little fa...is very fa....T.T keep bleeding..keep keep bleeding...
after tat...the 2nd bad thg happen again...
my lovely "snow paris bear" had drop on the floor n ....BROKEN....
my heart also broke like the GLASS...pling plang...T.T..
my lovely SNOW BEAR...
everyday i also will shake it...c the snow was flowing inside...i like snow...
but now...no more snow...T.T
now jz left Bear with holding the Paris tower...
i dunwan..i dunwan...i wan snow....SNOW...SNOW....