arrrr...

dunno y, 2day i damn bad mood, damn down...
dun ask me why, i also dunno...start from after my lunch...
i start damn moody....longtime dunhv tat kinda feeling ady...
damn suffer...feel like wanna run out this world again...
arrrr....gosh...my psychology problem come again...
act, i keep control myself 2 calm down n try dun hv any quarrel with my frenz...
but cannot...my vocano finally get outbreak after the j say nxtime pls c the time before u do the thg..."say with rudely"...!@#$%so mny bad words inside my heart...not only my fault also...duuu.
but i had ask myself need to control,control n control....but once i saw he face with like so lc...
i damn angry...n keep silenting...less talk...cz i knwonce i talk i sure will argue bck...
n after i start calm down....he start say smtg words, n sentences tat hurt me much...
normally,i wont so easy angry...but i had told them whn i'm getting silent, n sit at a corner, den dun ever try to disturb or make me angry....if not, they will die faster...n me 2...
but he still like wanna play the fire...duuu....finally...vocano had outbreak...
i start getting mad...n feel like wanna scold or bit him...but i dun even do tat...
i jz use my eyes n my killer face to show him i'm angrying...but he dun scared at all...
watever...now my mood not good..i dun ever wan 2 bother him...waste my energy...
y dun ever hv 1 people knw me...especially the fren who close wif me...
manythg i also dun like to tell...i prefer use my "heart" to do thg...but dun ever hv 1 ppl knw me..
haiz...damn sad lo...so mny bad thg happen on this few days...
lost my debit card,get scold by bos, get scold by fren, summore feel so sorry which cant acc ding..
arrr....damn moody now...feel like wanna cry, but cant cry it out...=.="
help me...